Saturday, 25 July 2015

Incomplete Fantasy #Cherished

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Recently, I was going through the tweets and I came across a song recording of my blogger friend, Purba Chakraborty and I must mention she has a gifted voice..
After listening to it, I just got reminded of the time when I used to have a dream of becoming a singer.

I was not into singing Hindi or even Punjabi songs rather was fond of singing the English ones. And I salute to people who can sing them well because they are far more difficult than singing English ones (according to me). Since, I can barely sing a Hindi song maintaining the proper 'surs'. Anyway, I used to think that it doesn't matter in which language you sing since music has no language, it's something that creates a soothing and refreshing aura around you. Right?

I started singing when I was around 9-10 years of age. When I was in school, I took part in the Choir and Orchestra, assemblies and many group singing and Carol singing competitions. But I was never confident enough to even try for the audition of solo singing.
Years passed and my passion for music grew with time, I was already a singing sensation in my fascinating dreams.

Later, during freshman year, I finally took courage to upload a song on Facebook. I got around 60 likes and so, that was a BIG thing for me. Now, I was confident enough that I was ready to sing solo. I tried for the prelims of solo singing in the annual fest. Since, I study in Punjabi University, the judges there, usually preferred Hindi or Punjabi songs (Mostly Punjabi) that wasn't fair at all. I was afraid that I may not get through because of this reason.

The first round was just in front of the judges and there was no audience so it wasn't really tough for me. I still remember when I saw the list of short listed students. I read the half of it and I didn't find my name anywhere, I lost all my hope but then I finally saw my name in the last 3-4 names. I felt so contended that I clicked a picture of it and it's still with me. I usually capture these kind of moments. The final prelims were in the Arts Auditorium.

I still remember how nervous I was. I had stage fright which I still have and it's a part of my social phobia. My turn was at third number, the 1st contestant (who also turned out to be the winner) sang so beautifully and flawlessly that everyone gave him a standing ovation. Now, I was even more tensed, the 2nd one was okay (she didn't pass through). Now, it was my turn, my heart was pounding at its maximum.

I was literally shivering, that also reflected in my voice. I couldn't feel the surrounding, I couldn't hear the soundtrack. I was so anxious and frightened that my mind nearly stopped working and there was a time when there was complete silence. 

Suddenly, I saw a senior clapping for me so he could cheer me up. He stood up and came in front, he faced the audience to ask them for the same and the very next moment, the entire auditorium was cheering for me. I again gained the nerve for singing and completed my song, I got many compliments after that. Though, I didn't clear the final prelims.

That was the 1st and the last attempt of my singing. I don't know whether it's my stage fear or lack of time that I never thought of singing again after that. Sigh!

This is my 1st recording that was uploaded on Facebook 4 years ago. It was recorded in a mobile phone recorder, so quality is not good. (An excuse for my voice) :D



This post is for the Cherished Blogfest, as singing being my one of the things that I'll always cherish :)



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38 comments:
  1. Omg! I never knew this beautiful poetess friend of mine is such a lovely singer too. You've been gifted with such a sweet, melodious voice dear. I would love to hear many more recordings of yours. God bless.. keep shinning! And undoubtedly I loved the post without forgetting to mention I have two darling singer friends, Purba & Deeshani <3 Hugs!

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    1. Awww... thanks a bunch dear!! I've heard your voice, honestly, I'm not even close to you and Purba :) And I must tell you, you guys are such a motivation to me in every aspect.. I'll try improving and recording more songs from now on ;) Super Hugs :

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    2. And thanks a ton for loving my voice :*

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    3. Pleasure's all mine dear ;) <3

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  2. You have a lovely voice Deeshani..and are quite melodious too.

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    1. Thank you so much.. It's very kind of you to say that.. :))

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  3. Such experiences are to be cherished. Even I click pics of such!
    Appreciate everyone cheering for you & supporting you. That gives confidence :)

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    1. You're absolutely right :) It did give me a lot of confidence indeed!
      Thank you so much for reading! :)

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  4. i was like :o when the song started !! you really have a gr8 voice ! plz sing more :) deeshani rules the direction and world ;) :D

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    1. Hehe.. I'm glad to know that but I'm just a beginner :) And I will sing more definitely :D

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  5. This is so good!:)
    I have found that stage performances are bad and injurious to my own health :D Btw, you can just sing; there is no need for excuse - its very nice to hear! :)

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  6. Thanks for this most interesting contribution to the Cherished blogfest. Good choice and you have a very good voice.

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    1. Thank you so much for the visit and welcome to my blog :)

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  7. So you are jack of many trades and good at them too!

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  8. What a great idea! To cherish your voice :) good recording, keep singing.

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    1. Hehe.. Thanks a lot... glad to see you here.. keep visiting :)

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  9. What a lovely post! Your voice is beautiful, thanks for sharing :)

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words.. welcome to my blog :)

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  10. First of all, I want to give you a tight virtual hug for letting us know that you are a singer too! I could so much relate to you after reading this post. Because of shortage of time, even I can't give enough time to music and I keep dreaming that one day I will do something with it.
    I loved the texture of your voice, Deeshani. You sounded a lot like Taylor Swift. Keep singing sweetheart. Much love :*

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    1. Thank you so so much dear..!! It means a lot :)
      You've always been a great support and my main on this blog!! Thanks a lot for always being a great example for me and motivating me.. I am so glad that you liked it :) A virtual hug from me too (Tighter one :))

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  11. That was amazing!!! I am glad that visited this page today. keep singing. you have an amazing voice. and loved reading the post. 10 out of 10 :)

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    1. Thank you so much :) Not 10 out of 10 though.. don't be so kind ha ha :D

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  12. Thank you for supporting the Cherished Blogfest, Deeshani, glad you could make the post so I could hear your lovely voice!

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    1. Thank you for this wonderful opportunity.. I enjoyed a lot.. writing this post.. Keep visiting :)

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  13. Lovely voice! I completely agree, singing in Hindi seems so much tougher than English!

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  14. Sometimes courage is all it takes.. u never know untill u try.. So happy for u dear :)

    Wear your Scarf/Dupatta/stole as a Dress

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    1. You're right dear.. Courage and confidence are all you need.. Indeed! Thanks much cuteheart :)

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  15. Must say you all (You, Purba, Maitreni, Shweta) are blessed with wonderful voices and are a talented lot. Keep singing Deeshani. Good you wrote about it via the Cherished blogfest.

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    1. Yay..!! :) I'm glad you count me as one of them... Thank you so so much :))

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  16. You really have a great voice. You should sing often. :)

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    1. Aww thanks so much dear.. I'm glad you found it so :)

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  17. My God ! Deeshani ...what a wonderful and lovelyvoice you have !! I must say you and Purba both are awesome ...loved it to bits dear ..cherished and followed your blog dear :) :)

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    1. Aww Thank you sooo very much.. I'm just an amateur though :D
      And also many thanks for following! keep visiting! :) :)

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  18. You sing so well, dear...you should start with it again; at least i would love to hear more. My suggestion would be to never give up, who knows you can be a Professional singer one day (it just takes one sheer luck)!

    If you are afraid of audience, you can join Toastmasters (i wrote about it few weeks back), where you will learn Public Speaking skills. It has helped me immensely, though i was already an extrovert and anchored in front of a crowd of couple thousand people multiple times in Wipro, Bangalore.

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    1. Thanks a ton..!! I'd surely be starting again. I never thought that it would be liked so much, and you people are no less than the ones who cheered me in the audience.. Thank you so much for originating that confidence for singing in me once again :)

      And I really need some tips and lots of help regarding this fear of mine. I'll check the website right away :D

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